20 April: I’m done!

dear diary,

I’m back! One hell of a period for me but I’m finally done for school! Today marks the end of my foundation studies, but hopefully I won’t have to go through it all over again. Let’s hope I don’t fail!!! Anyway what’s done is done so no point dwelling over it because pens down, times up and handed up my papers. I’m the one that doesn’t check my notes or textbook at all after the exam, anyone’s with me? Hahaha it’s pointless, so just wait for the result and see how it goes from there on. One priority down!

Now I’m going to focus on my coffee master studies and gaining some weight. Bad news I have a new priority and it is not a good one. I have fines to pay on the 3/5 so hopefully I’m able to work and pay for it myself. Found a few jobs thanks to my buddies recommendations but will have to think over it properly because I’ll be working 2 jobs and hopefully coping with life. Thank god holiday has arrived! 

Had a blast yesterday at one of my best friend’s chalet yesterday at D’Resort (YUP THE SAME PLACE I CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY HEHE), happy birthday again my man! Really happy to see him enjoying himself and having his well deserved rest. Party was great and there are bound to be some party popper but fuck that I had a blast with him drinking till lights out. Best thing is I have exam the day after which is today, but I gotta stay with the birthday boy right? Because if I don’t, I don’t think I’ll be assured that some other people will take good care of him and spend time with him, the FUCKING birthday boy. Didn’t wanna ruin the party even further so just chilled with him and made the best out of it. Glad he understood my intentions and told me everything was good. Just met up with him earlier on and now I’m writing this post on my way home… 

At the end of the day just do whatever makes you happy and do it for yourself.

Really happy to share just a bit of how I’m done with some of my stuff and embarking on another. Thank you guys for staying despite the inconsistency… I really appreciate y’all for even taking the time to read. I hope I’m writing well (: See y’all soon!

x

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10 April: Almost there!

Dear dairy I’ve neglected you again but on the brighter side, I’m here! Ops, sorry not sorry but what a busy period for me. Focusing on my school studies and just 10 more days till it is all over!!! Also having my presentation on this Thursday so I need all the luck and support from you guys ): Hahaha, I’ll just do my best and see how things go. I wanna finish my foundation studies and move on to diploma already, come on I can do this! At the same time also coping with my Coffee Master studies and this is very tiring and hard to balance. Altogether I have work and 2 things to study for, my school studies and Coffee Master studies. All of these is tiring as f*ck but I’m almost there, I can do it and I will.

And OH it’s already April and this is my first April post….. Time is passing really fast, I must be too busy living my life I didn’t keep track of the time at all! To think of it, I’m really speechless and shocked whenever I check the calendar because it feels like days are skipping….. I have no idea how to explain but time is just passing by too fast, so fast, super fast I can’t explain this feeling of how fast time is passing by…. Just OMG.

Priorities, so important to me but sometimes I just get really lazy and do shit like not doing shit at all. Get your shit together boy! And to all of you guys, all the best in what y’all doing and don’t give up, don’t ever give up. Persevere and you will see results, if you slack behind like me y’all gonna regret and time is not gonna slow down or rewind for you. Time is a sucky thing and we all have a love-hate relationship with it. Live your life right, don’t waste time doing nothing and make everyday productive! I’m still learning and on the way to becoming a better and more productive person. That’s why I’m juggling so many things like working and studying so many things at a go, trying my best to be productive but what I hope is I don’t fall from juggling because it is gonna be real shitty. But I always believed in myself and always believed that I can, so I’m gonna do this!!! Better days are coming, holidays are also coming so I have to do well and go through 2 more weeks of hell before the better days come. If you’re having a hard time, pull through it because you’ve come too far to quit, you’re almost there and you can do it LET’S GO!!!!

Lastly, emotions are fine these days. Just wanna share something today and that is to love yourself. Alright, imagine you have no money and you wanna give money. Same thing for love, you gotta love yourself before you can love the people around you. I’ve always worked for the “money” so that I can give it to whoever I want to give rather than working for myself, so whenever the person I wanna give the money to is gone, my purpose of working for money is gone too and then I’ll be broke. I’m not saying you can’t do that but it’s unhealthy to love when you have none to give. Loving yourself isn’t easy when you’re used to loving others more than yourself, but you have to truly love yourself before you can truly love others. I don’t wanna be broke when I’m all alone, I wanna work for myself and have that “money” for myself rather than just working to give it away. I’m learning and glad to share it with you guys.

Value yourselves people.

x